// 7:44am
| 09/11/2003 - 7:44 a.m. |

originally posted at TS @ TF, adding to my thread posted here
thanks, dears.
ah, i had definitely calmed down about it all the past few days.

the anxiety started rising a bit last night again tho--
wahwahwah, i don't wanna go to dinner (@ Bertucci's, overall great food, and OMG the best fucking rolls in all the land, heh)...
and who am i KIDDING, i don't DO that social-life-going-out-like-a-real-person thing...

i think the anxiety actually woke me up this morning (much earlier than i wanted to )

aunt was getting ready for work, had the tv on--canNOT watch it.
i am disturbingly immune to it all any other day of the year, but it was the same last year on this day, couldn't watch tv, look at newspaper, read anything on the web, deal with anything at all relating to "9/11"

definitely feeling the pit in my stomack again.

i mean, i know it'll be fine.
its just one of those in-the-grand-scheme-of-things, so NOT a big deal.
like don't i have anything better to whine about?
well, yeah, i do, actually.
partly why i choose to focus on shit like this.
but still...

blah, i'll be back to ramble more later probably.
thanks for listening