older(s) now
I feel: Tweety's No 1 Fan!
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// Just another manaical Bingeday Yeah, so I had thought/said that I was already sick of this little weekly experiment, but I woke up this morning with the urge to once again stuff my face with shit. Went grocery shopping, and besides my usual 'rexic "food," bought 2 kinds of donuts, strudel, and ice cream sandwiches. Along with my "normal" breakfast of rice cakes and cottage cheese, the total damage was somewhat less than last week, coming in at about 4200. Learned my lesson about leftovers though, and just went and threw them out in the trash bin. Planning to go back to restriction mode tomorrow, which I actually haven't been in for over a week now. Yes, totally hypocritical to what I wrote the other day, but while I don't have like a *desperate* need to lose or cleanse or punish, I also have little desire to very deeply examine my desire to slip back into starvation. I just wanna, dammit. Mom isn't getting in until later in the evening on Fri, so I should have 5 good days of going hungry. And I WILL be hungry I'm sure, since I've let my stomach get all stretched out in the past week. Blah.
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