// diggin ditches
| 05/14/2004 - 8:58 p.m. |

Fri, 5/14/04, 3:45pm
waiting for sean @ strawbridge's.

feeling kinda sad.
i guess.

i couldn't really read s.'s response to the PM, in terms of tone.
just seemed distant i guess??
certainly understandable.

she's definitely moving to boston.
*sigh*
and in 2 weeks!

she did ask if i wanted to come to dinner tomorrow.
i said:
"of course i would like to come.
if you're sure you honestly want me to."


i dunno, i feel like i've generally speaking really screwed things up.

and it might sound odd being that its not like i've seen much of her these last months--
but i'll miss her.
that physical distance--
its different.

and she's basically the only friend i have/had here anymore.
hell, who am i kidding, anywhere.


~~~~~
sad --> lonely --> bad --> (the) hopeless(ness)


i really need to stop eating.
as if that's the solution, right?



i could really use 'a j. + a s.'...

more pointless wishes.

am i digging myself "right into a damn ditch" or what?
~4:03pm