// who is THAT? (3/18)
| 03/28/2005 - 7:16 p.m. |

friday, 3-18-05, 10:45am
(pre-pat notes)

have still hardly written shit.
arrrggghhh.
going to frew to see ro. today.
maybe that will trigger my "muse"?!
pweeeaaassse!?!

on spring break this week.
haven't been too productive in any non-writing veins either.

except for working out!?
really, who coulda imagined 6 months ago?
i've even been doing cardio this week--like lots.
wack.
been feeling 'ok' "in my body" lately.
i still feel "weird" in my body tho.

i've never been this "big" in my life, even before i started working out.
and now i've got all these muscles too, in themselves bigger than i've ever had.
i just look in the mirror sometimes and it jolts me a little--
like who IS that??

speaking of which--
i walked out of Pat's office Monday, and saw a woman who looked so much like C., i had to look twice to be sure it wasn't.
eek.
the main difference is that she was more MY size than C's.
i.e., unless C. has packed on about 20 pounds since i last saw her...
i am (proportional to height) *definitively* bigger than her.
ummmm...