// q=why.am.i.here. a=no.fucking.clue
| 01/23/2004 - 5:49 p.m. |

11:25am

first day = overwhelming. WAY overstimulating. what in the fuck am i doing here?!?!

went home--exhausted. feeling like shit. to mom: 'they're all "fluffy" there, i cannot take it when i come home...stupid fucking exchanges - i hate this shit.

trying to sleep--the shame. i am not supposed to BE "here"...and i really really want my C. really, really, really, really

2:52pm

today = sucking monkey balls.
LEAVE ME A.L.O.N.E.!!
(my) tears fucking everywhere. left goddamn "needs" group.
what in the fuck am i doing here?!?!