// flashing flags and screaming signs
| 07/15/2004 - 11:40 a.m. |
thu
(pre-pat notes)
got my fucking period this morning.
during the night really--
lovely.
perhaps now i'll at least de-bloat to a more human form?
my fingers have been swollen,
to the pt of being sore like i'd sprained all 10 of them.
wtf is that?!
+ i think the ibuprofen is wearing off already--
ouch.
so yeah,
i'm in a great fucking mood this morning.
~~~~~
not anything new going on really...
when i've been going on tf now the last few days,
its mostly just to post-stalk...
i know if i said what i see,
the screaming red flags...
i'd be scoffed at,
told to just c.f.o.
"don't be such a drag"
...but whatever.
i can't do it anymore.
i just can't.
not that she wants me to.
i'm clear on that.
and i'm done.
i can't watch it.
not yet again.
hurts too much.
i just can't.
fuck, i gotta stay away from that thread.
which really means i should steer clear of tf altogether.
*sigh*
~~~~~
of course, don't wanna talk about any of that today.
which means there is some neon sign flashing on my forehead for pat saying...
blah.
~~~~~
not sure when i'm gonna tackle the midterm yet.
i'd like to do 1 part today or tom.
and the other sat.
but i dunno.
| <--sometime | whenever--> |
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