// k
| 07/07/2003 - 5:57 p.m. |

mom is flying out this friday (july 11th).

i guess it'll take the weekend or so to fit as much as can be in my car, throw out as much as possible, and ship the rest.

then we'll be driving cross-country from ca.
assuming i manage to get the car inspected or what have you in time.

i don't even know for sure where i'll be living, most likely with aunt j. in philly, but she's joined on aunt c.-and-uncle j.'s "won't enable me" bandwagon.
whatever.


spent some time with j. saturday night.
i very much did not want to see anyone or go anywhere (duh).
but i figured i at least owed it to her to tell her i was leaving in person.

i did.
she was sad and concerned and all that.
i felt nothing.

we spent an hour in barnes and noble.
she hadn't eaten dinner still, so we went to denny's around 11pm.
she ate some egg and ham and cheese thing with hash browns.
i had 2 cups of black decaf coffee.


never got any reply from c. about the 'madness'.
i emailed the "dead but still delusional" entry to her.
no response of course.
whatever.


had last session with d. today.
pretty blah.
i felt nothing.


*shrug*