// school deja-vous
| 05/27/2004 - 11:40 a.m. |

(pre-pat notes)

o.m.g.
i went + registered yesterday.
and bought books!

in all the many, many times i've done this 'simple' task in my life--
this felt so i-don't-even-know-the-word.
it was some kind of high-anxiety(!) adrenaline rush.

from the moment i got out of my car it was some mix of eerie + deja vous.
funny, it has the most "campus" feel of any school i've gone to--
not in the middle of a city (GW, CCP, drexel);
or a single building in an office district (cspp).
montco has actual trees + paths + shit.
weird.

and as soon as i started walking, backpack on, i immediately felt all "student-y"
now, i always have my backpack w/ me, anywhere i go--
and definitely don'tfeel like a student.
strange.

i had to buy 4 books, packaged in twos.
they look 'scary'.

the one pack is like 'conceptual' stuff--
a) boring;
b) what if i have to do any WRITING for the class?!?

the other is a java text + a lab book i think--
a) cool, learning some programming is what i was hypothetically hoping for;
b) oh shit! i don't have experience w/ java, i'll have to be taking in/understanding new info!

my stomach is already doing its anxiety-invoked painfully-fucking-with-me game.
EEK! x 1000


blah, its 2 minutes to 12 + door is locked.
grATE.
"nerves" really don't need this...
think i see her coming now...