// snail mail...no, email!
| 03/02/2004 - 10:29 a.m. |

email to C.
hey!
so i started typing this last night, to then be transferred to paper, and suddenly just now, out of the blue, my computer starts functioning again!!
no idea, but praying to goddess it keeps doing so!
the letter, as you'll see, is not finished, but want to send this to ya asap, as i can now, and of course would love a quick response ;)

bewildered,
m.



mon 3/1 6:20pm

dear c,.
so i would imagine you are pretty surprised not to have heard from me until now...

although i obviously could have written or called previously, the main reason i've been out of touch is that my email/internet/computer has been totally fucked-up for weeks now and still is. frustrating the hell out of me as you can guess, no one has a clue what the problem is, next step is to totally reinstall all my software.
do want to clarify that while i can't SEND email right now, i AM still able to RECEIVE it!!!

where to start now??
i guess i'll try the current status of stuff before backtracking.
today was my 40th! and last day at renfrew. finally.
it was actually supposed to be last friday (2/27), but one of those nasty insurance issues arose on thursday (2/26) and resolving it required that i come for 1 additional day, i.e. today. weirdness. but anyways.
after, well, everything--it was actually rather difficult to say goodbye.
ok, mostly not at all, heh, but there are a select few people that i'll genuinely miss.
#1 on that list, rather annoyingly, is tacie.
i actually really liked her, we had a mutual connection from almost day 1...
and that being said, it will surely not surprise you that we spent most of the 5+ weeks fighting.
[[i even had a new therapy milestone--getting kicked out of a session/the office!...must remember to tell ya that story later ;-P]]
hah.
but nevertheless, or likely therefore, it was a hard goodbye.

much different dynamic, but i loved dr. rosenberg too.
she totally lived up to s.'s hype.
can you believe it, genuinely liking a psychiatrist--ME?!?
don't faint on me now...honest to goddess, i even *trust* her!
she's that good.
AND, i *should* actually be able to continue working w/her--
will have to weave my way through some renfrew rules + bureaucracy--
but s. had to do the same, + it wasn't too difficult.

on the majorly anxiety-provoking side, i have an appt with a new therapist tomorrow.
now this is with the official aftercare referral: Bethann B., LSW @ E.g. Counseling.
(also have a shrinks name, a Dr. N., male, @ the same place, as per renfrew randomness i couldn't be directly referred to rosenberg, + am supposed to be contacted regarding a renfrew support group)
but today i also got a rec. from tacie, someone rosenberg also knows and raved to me about--name is Pat D.
comparatively, neither had ever heard of the person i'm meeting w/tomorrow.
so yeah, pretty up in the air here--guess i'll go tomorrow, and then, just see what i think/feel/want to do from there.
**of course, would much appreciate any input you could give--know any of these names and/or people??**


so that's all of 'that' stuff...time to finally respond to the 'other', i guess...


10:30pm--several hours of avoidance later...hey, how 'bout tomorrow?! ;)