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// POP! 2:50pm �POP!� It seemed to happen in slow motion. I was in the air, twisting and flipping; I spotted my landing; and then out of nowhere came that jarring sound as I hit the floor off-balance, with all of my weight coming down on a turned right ankle. As if it had been choreographed, everyone stopped what they were doing and turned their heads simultaneously to see what had caused that awful pop. I was never an Olympic-caliber or even elite-level gymnast, but my passion for the sport of gymnastics was no less than that of such greats as Kim Zmeskal or Shannon Miller. I was in the midst of the best year of my athletic life. I was in the best shape I�d ever been, learning lots of new skills, and winning local competitions left and right. But the biggest meets of the season would start in only three weeks, and I had just been told it would be that long before I would be able to walk after tearing apart several ligaments in my ankle. As I sat on my bed that night with my foot elevated and wrapped in a huge bag of ice, my ankle had already swelled to three times its normal size, displayed bruises of every color in the rainbow, and I couldn�t even wiggle my toes. I was making a futile attempt to convince myself that it was just a nightmare and I would wake up any second when the phone rang. It was my coach Lauretta, to whom I gave much of the credit for my new-found confidence and consistent performances. She called to lift my spirits and tell me not to worry. �Forget about sectionals,� she said about the first big competition on the way to National Championships. �By state champs, I promise you�ll be good as new.� In that moment, I decided to throw all common sense out the window. �No!,� I told her. Since the end of the previous competitive season, I had three goals for this year: 1)win the all-around at sectionals; 2)place top three in the all-around and win the floor title at state championships; and 3)qualify to nationals. �I�m not giving up that easily. Screw my ankle! Patty Parks is NOT getting my title.� Lauretta laughed and told me she had had a feeling I�d say that. �You�re right. You can do this. I�ll see you tomorrow.� I spent the next week in the gym, trying to walk in my air-cast, doing lots of conditioning and strength work, and repetition after repetition of my bar routine minus the dismount. Outside of practice I still used my crutches to get around, and kept the ankle elevated and on ice as much as possible. I was in pain, but I really didn�t care. I just wanted to do gymnastics. They gym had always been a safe place for me. When I was working-out, everything and everyone else in the world disappeared and I was completely content. I know of nothing else in the world that provides such an incredible rush as finally hitting that new skill you�ve been working on, nailing your tenth beam routine in a row, or doing the best vault of your life to help your team win a big meet. By the second week after injuring my ankle, I was doing full beam routines and dance-throughs on floor. My parents and doctor all thought I was crazy, but knew better than to argue with me once I set my mind on doing something. Two days before sectionals, I finally went through competition routines on all four apparatus: dismounts, tumbling, everything. I felt pretty confident except for vault, my worst event under normal circumstances. But Lauretta assured me that with the adrenalin of performing, I would barely even feel the pain in my ankle. And she was right. I ended up winning sectionals with a personal best score and in the next few months met my other goals for the year as well. But while the medals and trophies are now stored away somewhere, the memories of the three weeks I spent racing against time stay with me. I never again took my time in the gym or on the competition floor, doing what I loved, for granted. I also discovered a source of strength within myself that I had never before been connected with, one that has carried over into all other aspects of my life. Those are the things I remember, the stuff that really matters.
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