// unquiet goes to the...gym?!?!
| 10/12/2004 - 1:05 p.m. |

mon, 10-11-04, 2:43pm
(pre-pat notes)

there was a lot of madness this weekend.
on saturday specifically.

get this--
i worked out!

did ya see the pigs flying?

i just did the nautilus + cybex machines.
definitely not ready to try anything aerobic yet,
and see just how bad my breathing has gotten in the last 3 yrs--
in which i've been smoking even more than i used to,
+ have moved by body less than should even be possible.

yeah, so, i basically tried out every machine.
took it real easy.
very light weights and minimal reps.

well, ok, except the thigh machines.
i did go back and do a little more on them.
heh.

but i was anticipating being really sore,
just from the simple act of walking into the Y, lol.

b/c i am just SO beyond out of shape.

however, i am surprisingly not sore at all.

and i was upping things just a tiny bit more as i went along.
b/c, well, ya know, i can't help myself.

so i dunno,
perhaps i'm not quite such a hopeless case after all?!

i'm going again today after therapy.

like i said--madness.

it definitely did feel good, i admit, to like use my body.
not that i didn't know it would.
i haven't resisted all the cajoling to exercise b/c i didn't want to.
i just couldn't make/motivate myself to...



tue, 10-12-04, 1:05pm
(creative writing class, 'free write')

...there was also a rather "interesting" coincidence, or may synchronicity?,
alongside this historical occurence on saturday--
i ran out of stackers.
finally.

spooky, huh?

actually, i found 3 in my backpack yesterday,
but have no inclination to take them.
well, right now.
i am saving them in case of "emergency"
yeah, yeah, so sue me.

i did notice a difference sunday, i gotta say.
like, when i took a nap?!

i can sleep as long as 15-16 hours straight,
but i don't take naps.

no headache, but i've also been taking ibuprofen like candy b/c of those damn canker sores.
so mighta cut that one off at the head.
nonetheless, i've done caffeine withdrawal before.
and it ain't pretty.
but i have some ephedra free stackers from back in the day.
so i'm gonna ween my way off w/ them.
and hey, maybe, i'll even stop being so damn lazy + make a pot of coffee once in a while!


so pat was pretty psyched for me re the workout thing.
(and yes, i told her about my pseudo-stacker plan--
she seemed ok w/ it)

she hadn't finished reading my Z piece.
was going to yesterday before seeing me, but had forgot it at home.
so friday for that one.

we talked a lotta politics again yesterday--
always a good time ;-)

kinda random--
she said she's been listening to my mix a lot.
its been located in her car CD player for a while,
so she has it on every time she drives.
i do the same thing.
play the same CD over + over for like weeks at a time.
and especially when i make a mix.
it pretty much stays in there until i am BeyonD sick of it.

but anyway, i was just thinking then how:
she must have at least some passing thought of me,
everytime she gets in her car...

which is, um...?
not sure.

i am sorta flattered that she likes 'my' music enough to keep listening to it.
i guess i'm just thinking how i do see to have a way,
of passively slippinginto the therapisty types "non-session" consciousness.
or something...