// don't give a shit. "right.."
| 07/08/2004 - 11:30 a.m. |

thu, (pre-pat)

so, some 'fascinating', for better or worse, interchange w/ s.

yes, i started the sniping.
no doubt.

but way to validate it!

we are bordering on cruel.
teetering on the edge of there being no return.

but my feeling currently is predominantly one of astoundment.

for ex.--
my "fyi" was in the vein of:
how was i supposed to know?
sometimes #s that aren't really restricted will come up as such arbitrarily.
i didn't really consider that she might be out-right LYING.


and THEN,
o.m.f.g.
to question that i even CARE?!?!

that is beyond.the.pale.

i've been a shitty friend in a # of ways.
i have myself established that.

but how fucking DARE she?!?

oh no, i don't care--

i was hurt + upset + sad + angry @ the whole original move announcement thing b/c:
i don't care.

i purposely called a 'truce,' so to speak, prior to her bday because:
i don't care.

i found it upsetting that she left w/o saying good-bye + remained m.i.a. for weeks b/c:
i don't care.

i worry about her not taking her meds + playing this such-bs-ana-game b/c:
i don't care.


are you fucking KIDDING me?!?


astounded.
astonished.
jaw-dropping amazed.

yeah.

un_fucking_believable.